Breaking of the Dawn

There are days you wish never dawned... There are some days which you wish you shouldn’t have seen the light of...some days where you feel that you didn’t deserve the world and the world didn’t deserve you... And there are days that you wish never end... and then again there are those 'mixed' days - days which start just right and you think 'Great! now, THIS is how the perfect day should be... and then things start going a little hay-wire as the day wears on... little pressure here and a bunch of smiles there... some disappointments, some trials, some successes... a cancelled lecture, a witty remark, a confidante heart-to-heart talk, a sudden grin... the day vanishes into the dusky evening and the silent night creeps in...

A brand new day throws open a whole skylight of new dimensions and a fresh way of looking at the world… it gives you another chance of living each moment as if it were your last... of giving yourself a fighting chance to that elusive dream... that deepest, dearest wish in your heart... it's life's way of telling you to throw your inhibitions, your tribulations, your problems behind you and just... LIVE!!!!

Yeah, I guess there ARE some days you wish that just didn't dawn but then as Castaway says it all : There will be a daybreak after the darkest nights... It doesn't matter whether you are a LION or a GAZELLE...When the sun comes up, you better be READY!

Tying Up The Loose Ends...

I'm not counting down really, but I have about 10 days before everything changes. It's that time again; moving away, starting a new job, making new friends, picking up new life habits. And one always has to ask oneself the question - Am I who I want to be? It's a difficult question to answer. Sometimes we are the person that the situation has dictated. If we move to cold Alaska, maybe we will start doing the things that Alaskans do. But are we doing it because we like doing it or just because we are there? The same is true if we are moving from Pune City. All those nights of going out: Was that because we were in Pune and we had to make the most out of the experience or was it truly something that we enjoyed and will want to do no matter where we go? The same is true of the people we meet. Do we enjoy hanging out with our coworkers or do we prefer meeting people outside work? Those friends we have with whom we only watch movies or only go bowling - Are they any better friends than the ones we go to dinner with, or have been to our house? Do we wish we got to know them in a deeper sense?

So, not to get too philosophical, but it’s these questions which are popping in my head as of now. I will be a new fish in the big pond. I can choose everything about who I hang out with, what I do with my free time, how much I exercise, the healthy foods I eat, all that jazz. So now it's really the time to decide - Who is it that I want to be? And is that me? Fresh slate!

And in the meantime there's the daunting task of tying up loose ends. Saying goodbye to old friends, and finding closure with the ones that I probably won't keep in touch with. The ones who forgot about us when we were so close, that we don't need to worry about as we move further away. The ones who won't call us on our birthday or Christmas or New Year's. The ones who have always been too busy to write or call back. The ones we just don't have the energy, nor desire, to fight with. The ones who probably don't even know we are moving. Those are the ones we let go!

I'll always be reminded of what my professor once said - Not everyone can sit in your front row (In comparing you and your close relationships to stadium seating). And it's true, as new people come in, there are only selected seats for the front row people. And as hard as it might be to believe, that someone who once held the top spot must now just be another audience member in the aisle. Facts are facts!

So tying up loose ends means moving on from things that aren't positively impacting my life, saying goodbye to bad habits and getting ready to cook more, to eat healthier, to exercise more, read more, write more, do all the things that I've put off because I was so busy(doing nothing). It means meeting people and forming relationships with people that are on same page, heading towards similar goals. Tying up loose ends means getting rid of all of the baggage and throwing away the junk that we don't want to move with, both literally and figuratively speaking.

Like a seed grows to be a plant

We most sow our seeds and wait

For nature to take its time

And allow us to share in its beauty.

So, let's wait to see what happens. And be excited about the future, but first take care of the present and tie up the loose ends!!!!

Randomness

Well it has been a little over a week since I've decided to get offline. Ok, since I actually got offline. I decided a little before then. This has turned into somewhat of a social experiment for me. So far it's been really interesting. The first couple of days were hard because I was really wondering what was going on and wanted to know; but as the days passed I found other ways to spend my time and it's actually pretty liberating. I'm not glued to my lappy for hours or feel the need to check on things so often. I've met up with people [in person] that I hadn't talked to in a while, cleaned up around the place, and not been as stressed out about finding out things the unnatural way.

Most importantly I've found that people who really want to get hold of me will utilize the many other avenues of communication. In some ways I am avoiding certain things but it's nice to have a break; I needed to have a break. I do miss talking to certain people whose main communication was via the internet and I know that I am not responding to messages that I don't even know that I have. So that is a downside, but again I haven't moved, my number hasn't changed, and my email still works.

So I'm finding that I'm getting by and enjoying this simplification. Well it might be complicated in its own ways but as of now it’s just me with myself! Let’s see where this goes. I have so many other alternatives to keep myself occupied: mp3 player or catching flicks on TV. Maybe a book or a puzzle. The possibilities are endless. And I’m loving it!!!

And Now U R Gone....

The feeling is so strange. It’s all so hollow from within. Life is so unpredictable…just in the wink of an eye everything changes. Our world is affected and in a way we never expect it to.


We meet people who were strangers. We never thought that they would be present in our life. And in no time they become a part of our life…in a way in which we can’t imagine their not being there! How does it feel when such people walk away from us? People whom we thought to be ours...to be there for us; in no time cut us away from their lives and throw us as if we were just a piece of crap in their life.

Its sad when people you know become people you knew, when you walk right past someone like they were never a big pat of your life, how you used to talk to them for hours and now you can barely even look at them!

I know it makes a deep impact…a situation which becomes difficult to tackle. After all we all are humans with emotions making us feel the pain.

But I still find optimism in a pessimistic twist like this. I am thankful to all such people…people who have made me realize that they didn’t deserve to be there in my life…and for making my life better than ever before by going! After all they were just faking around to be well wishers rather than being genuinely one.

Anyways they never valued us….so be happy that we no longer have those people whom we value but they don’t!

There is always a silver lining in the dark clouds!

Fact Of Life

“The best way to survive in this world is not to let yourself be overpowered by emotions, sentiments, temptations and love coz once you give in, it’s very difficult to come back to your normal self. That’s the only way you can maintain the sanity of your mind.”

Celebrate UR Uniqueness...

A plum once said, just because a banana lover came by, I converted myself into a banana. Unfortunately, his taste changed after a few months and so I became an orange. When he said I was bitter I became an apple, but he went in search of grapes. Yielding to the opinions of so many people, I have changed so many times that I no more know who I am.
How I wish I had remained a plum and waited for a plum lover.

Just because a group of people do not accept you as you are, there is no necessity for you to strip yourself of your originality. You need to think good of yourself, for the world takes you at your own estimate. Never stoop down in order to gain recognition. Never let go of your true self to win a relationship. In the long run, you will regret that you traded your greatest glory - your uniqueness, for momentary validation.There is a world for each one of you, where you shall reign as king /queen by just being yourself. Find that world... in fact, that world will find you.What water can do, gasoline cannot and what copper can, gold cannot. The fragility of the ant enables it to move and the rigidity of the tree enables it to stay rooted. Everything and everybody has been designed with a proportion of uniqueness to serve a purpose that we can fulfill only by being our unique self. You as you alone can serve your purpose and I as I alone can serve my purpose. You are here to be you... just you.There was a time in this world when a Krishna was required and he was sent; a time when a Christ was required and he was sent; a time when a Mahatma was required and he was sent; a time when a J.R.D. Tata was required and he was sent. There came a time when you were required on this planet and hence you were sent. Let us be the best we can be.

Don't miss yourself and let the world not miss you.In the history of the universe, there has been nobody like you and to the infinite of time to come, there will be no one like you. Existence should have loved you so much that it broke the mould after making you, so that another of your kind will never get repeated. You are original. You are rare. You are unique. You are a wonder.

You are a masterpiece... your Master's piece.

Celebrate your Uniqueness!!!!

Is it all about Winning????

Well…we recently concluded with the table tennis league at our college, and fortunately I happened to be associated with it quite closely….As of now I just had the knowledge of a layman about the game…but this tournament gave me quite an insight about it and made me acquainted with the intricacies involved.

 My intention is not to discuss my knowledge about the same!!! There were 6 teams in total, each with their set of players. All the teams were at par with each other. Ironically as per the law of the land…only 1 could win. But my concern is not as to who won….Once I saw the matches and the players facing each other I could see a spark in each one of them…everybody under tremendous pressure with an expectation from the owner, the team and of course the supporters; gave his best shot…the matches were all so close…Some of the real good players had an early exit.

This tournament had made me think for a while…IS IT ALL ABOUT WINNING??? Or its but being your best and giving in your 100%.This league taught me an important lesson…Its not only about winning at the end of the day…it’s about putting in your best foot forward with a positive attitude and giving your best shot…

This I believe helps us to achieve a sense of satisfaction which is much more eternal than anything else….Even winning…so as its always said…Do your best and leave the rest!!!!!