Nostalgia

Something made her stop while she was on her way. It was the same coffee shop where she first met him. She forgot if she was for a work with other friends. All she could remember was the time spent with him. Those chats, the smiles, the spark in her eyes! She was laughing over the coincidence that she was clad in the very same dress that she wore when she went out with him. It was all so nostalgic. Sliding back in time and reliving those moments was the best she could do. The drive, the walk, the guy whom she could talk… every single thing which went in making her day was so fresh in front of her eyes…all she could do was wish him there and it would have been so nice.

She so wanted it to be that very day….but she knew that he was far and away! She had to come back to the present from the past, but deep inside wanted this feeling to last….

The nostalgia has taken over her and even as she went on with her friends, the thoughts still lingered!

And Now U R Gone....

The feeling is so strange. It’s all so hollow from within. Life is so unpredictable…just in the wink of an eye everything changes. Our world is affected and in a way we never expect it to.


We meet people who were strangers. We never thought that they would be present in our life. And in no time they become a part of our life…in a way in which we can’t imagine their not being there! How does it feel when such people walk away from us? People whom we thought to be ours...to be there for us; in no time cut us away from their lives and throw us as if we were just a piece of crap in their life.

Its sad when people you know become people you knew, when you walk right past someone like they were never a big pat of your life, how you used to talk to them for hours and now you can barely even look at them!

I know it makes a deep impact…a situation which becomes difficult to tackle. After all we all are humans with emotions making us feel the pain.

But I still find optimism in a pessimistic twist like this. I am thankful to all such people…people who have made me realize that they didn’t deserve to be there in my life…and for making my life better than ever before by going! After all they were just faking around to be well wishers rather than being genuinely one.

Anyways they never valued us….so be happy that we no longer have those people whom we value but they don’t!

There is always a silver lining in the dark clouds!

Free Yet Trapped

I am someone who is not unaware of power of words. A young girl who used to pen down her thoughts since her school days.

Someone who could let her mind and heart speak for her in the most captivating ways through her words….some written, some unspoken, some to be read between the lines.


Daily life incidences, Random Thoughts crossing my mind, Deep Wishes within my Heart, Rhythm flowing out of me in the form of Poem….just a glimpse of few fallen ink drops from the pen of a girl who was so Herself.
It gave a deep sense of satisfaction and peace. If not anyone else I had my horizon of thoughts where feelings and words met. Writing was one important part of my life which helped me establish a sync with my own self.

Normally as the time passes by, one gets more composed. But alas! This wasn’t the case with me. I gave up writing, I gave it up all. No longer did my thoughts meet my words and the horizon as it appears to be but in reality never met! I confined myself within me. It wasn’t that I had no one to speak to but had this inhibition of speaking my heart out: the fear of not being unheard but not understood.
So as the clock ticked, I got lost somewhere. Lost far away from my own self. Now there were no more fallen ink drops….it was all dried! I now feel that there was this layer on me which inhibited me from doing so.

With the inspiration and sheer motivation from close people (people who know me well), I have once again taken to writing.

I have broken free all the shackles: shackles which chained my thoughts. I have wiped off the thick layer of dust: dust which suffocated my feelings.

Now I am all set to fly. Fly in my own horizon. My wings being expression and imagination.

I strive to make a comeback after a long time. I wish to see myself as the same young girl who thought she had wings and her mind flew to places unexplored, thoughts which could not unfold and feelings untold!!!

Just wish for the same strength and flair which has always been the force behind those fallen ink drops.

Hope they never dry now…

Amen!

Thanks for being there!

Let us be grateful to people


who make us happy;

They are the charming gardeners

who make our souls blossom.

Each of them are just like unique flowers in the bouquet called life who by their fragrance make our life all the more sweet.

For all those who have touched our lives and made a difference!

Yaadein....

फिर यादों का कारवां चल पड़ा है

उमीदों की कश्ती में बहते हुए

सुनहरे लम्हों को बुनते हुए

बीते पलों को समेटते हुए

मुझे भी अपने साथ ले चला है

फिर यादों का कारवां चल पड़ा है!

Little Words Of Hope

Never count the stars…you will be lost in the sky

Capture their twinkle, in your shiny eyes

Never shed tears…they are sign of the weak

Smile and with you, let the world smile

Never count your sorrows…they are meant to be

Value your well wishers, who make life worthwhile

Never count the moments…when people have been rude and mean

Look around and you will find lots of reasons to be calm and serene

Out, it’s not that sad and grey which can’t be coped
Within You, there is always a RAY OF HOPE!

U n Me

2.30 in the Night...

No moon in the Dark Sky!

Wide Road,You and Me...

Don’t know Where and Why???

Exam Dilemma

Things can’t get worse than this. It’s 11 in the night and I have my mid terms exams going on. I have two papers tomorrow and Wow! This girl seems to have studied nothing, despite of the fact that the books were all strewn across and the only thing she remembers now is that all this while somewhere in the subconscious of her mind, she knew she had to study but it just didn’t happen! Instead she sits and decides that she’ll blog about her pathetic situation..lol.

This has always been the case with me. During exams, my mind suddenly starts working overtime: not for the subject which is due next day, but rather it starts churning out philosophical stuff and LO! All the poetry and thoughts start flowing out of this lil brain, when it should be rather concentrating more on all those bloody MBA theories. I guess it’s because the brain becomes proactive and blocks out what seems unnecessary to it and thinks on more practical lines…howzzat? That’s what happens when you know, you have realized it long time back that what you have yearned so long isn’t at all worth it. So the only solution left is to tolerate what seems an utter waste of time and absolutely useless to one’s mighty self!!

For a long time now (maybe from the time I joined this ‘oh-so-loved-by-all’ MBA thingy) this has been my mantra in life –THIS TOO SHALL PASS i.e. somewhere deep inside a hope, that this weird situation will soon pass leading on to something better. Maybe this is what has got me going all these months when the course I always aspired to study seemed like a total wastage of money, time and efforts. I was all hell bent on sticking on with it and torturing myself in return (yeah, a torture that it is to me!).But anyways my very purpose as THEY say of being an MBA is solved…i.e by God’s Grace I am placed!

Above all this is the last midterms of my MBA course. Have mugged up enough all this two years. So I guess its time to enjoy the remaining 2 months to the fullest. I just so wanna get over this grade stuff now which now seems so be all meaningless.

I have tried hard enough to study but finally thought of giving it up now. So after writing my state of mind a night before exam, ooohh!! I feel so relaxed now…its time to motivate my other friends not to study!

Till then adieu!

Here goes a little prayer so that I fare well in my paper tomorrow!

Fact Of Life

“The best way to survive in this world is not to let yourself be overpowered by emotions, sentiments, temptations and love coz once you give in, it’s very difficult to come back to your normal self. That’s the only way you can maintain the sanity of your mind.”

A Big Day Part II

September 30th… As I briefed in my previous post, 30th was one of the most awaited days of my life. The gap of 26th to 30th was indeed very breathtaking. Every passing moment got me closer to the final day. These couple of days was spent in hopes, wishes, nervousness, chilling out to be cool and such mixed bunch of emotions. Today morning the 12 of us who have been shortlisted for the final round assembled in the placement cell. Therein we were asked to go to Sun & Shades- a three star hotel of the city where the final HR round of interview was scheduled. We were the first college to be there. Gradually the finalists of other colleges also started assembling. The competition was no doubt intense and fierce. We absolutely had no idea on the numbers they were looking for. Soon, we as in 12 of us were called for our interview. Our college was the first one to get through the process. Means that the wait time for the results was maximum!!! We were waiting for all the finalists to be through and then for the results to be announced which was again done college wise. When we were informed that out of 12, 10 have made it, bet me everyone there would be wishing to be in the selected 10 and fearing the fact that they should not list in the 2 who by hard luck couldn’t make it. One after the other the names were announced and YES!!!! My name was very much there in the selected ones. The moment was incredible. Honestly even if I try my best to put it in words I won’t be able to do justice with it. Though I was expecting and confident of being selected, still that very moment caught me up. I was actually numb and it took me some real time to be escalated about it.

YES!!! I made it….I made it to the very first company I ever sat for. Making my way ahead, leaving hundreds behind to make my own mark.

It was indeed joyous and a matter of pride for everyone attached to me even far and wide. I can’t forget to mention all the wishes of my near and dear ones, their belief and confidence in me, their constant motivation and support which actually helped me to wade through all this, successfully. Thanks a lot people. It means a lot!!!

Above all I truly feel endowed and abundant with HIS Divine Blessings and Love for me, due to which I am what I am today. He has His own plans for everyone.

At the end, I would just like to write that THE JOURNEY HAS JUST BEGUN!!!!

A Big Day Part I

26th September… a day after, when we got free from our 3rd sem examz. Well as it was expected, it wasn’t a relaxed and laid back evening after winding up all the papers. The reason being that LG was coming to college for placements. Every one of us was already caught by the exam week. But none of us could afford to be carefree and dull even after the exams. The dream company was coming to campus. The 25th evening was spent browsing LG website and collecting as much information about the company as possible. Also brushing up the current affairs, going through the market figures etc was done with vigilance. After spending a night full of anxiety, nervousness and such strange feelings, came the bright morning. All of us – the future managers were confident and yet nervous. Everyone was geared up to give his best shot. Smartly dressed in our business suits, the auditorium was filled with young aspiring managers. Soon the wait was over. We saw the LG team accompanied by our placement people walking towards the auditorium. We were immediately briefed about the company by the HR manager. Everything was happening so soon, one after the other. Soon, the groups for GD were announced.
It was appearing as if time was flying so fast. Soon all the 14 groups were done and everyone’s heart was beating fast waiting for the results to be announced. And to my happiness I was one of the three girls selected from my group. Honestly, I couldn’t know how to react…be happy and excited for being chosen for the next round or feel sad about my friends who couldn’t make it. Immediately after the names of all the finalists were announced we were asked to move to other room to take psychometric test. After the completion of the same the personal interview started. I must say, I was quite elated after my performance as I gave my best shot and couldn’t have performed better as I always believe that Do your best and leave the rest!
Now, the final moment was awaited. All this time I was anxiously waiting for the disclosure of the result. Finally, the moment arrived. With the list of finalists in hand, all of us were keeping our fingers crossed. We got to know that out of 26, 12 of us made for the final round. Speculations were quite high. By God’s grace I was one of them. From 176 who appeared for LG to the final 12 shortlisted for the grand finale, I made it! The entire process made me quite confident and stronger. It has imbibed a sense of achievement in me. Though I imagine how it would have been, being on the other side of the fence, but I guess this is the practical aspect. You lose some, you win some.
Undoubtedly I am quite happy and thrilled to be the chosen one. But it was just a war. The battle has yet to be fought on 30th. So I am all armoured with much more confidence, poise and optimism to face the D-Day. As it’s rightly said that,” It’s not about winning a war, but it’s all about winning the Battle”.

Celebrate UR Uniqueness...

A plum once said, just because a banana lover came by, I converted myself into a banana. Unfortunately, his taste changed after a few months and so I became an orange. When he said I was bitter I became an apple, but he went in search of grapes. Yielding to the opinions of so many people, I have changed so many times that I no more know who I am.
How I wish I had remained a plum and waited for a plum lover.

Just because a group of people do not accept you as you are, there is no necessity for you to strip yourself of your originality. You need to think good of yourself, for the world takes you at your own estimate. Never stoop down in order to gain recognition. Never let go of your true self to win a relationship. In the long run, you will regret that you traded your greatest glory - your uniqueness, for momentary validation.There is a world for each one of you, where you shall reign as king /queen by just being yourself. Find that world... in fact, that world will find you.What water can do, gasoline cannot and what copper can, gold cannot. The fragility of the ant enables it to move and the rigidity of the tree enables it to stay rooted. Everything and everybody has been designed with a proportion of uniqueness to serve a purpose that we can fulfill only by being our unique self. You as you alone can serve your purpose and I as I alone can serve my purpose. You are here to be you... just you.There was a time in this world when a Krishna was required and he was sent; a time when a Christ was required and he was sent; a time when a Mahatma was required and he was sent; a time when a J.R.D. Tata was required and he was sent. There came a time when you were required on this planet and hence you were sent. Let us be the best we can be.

Don't miss yourself and let the world not miss you.In the history of the universe, there has been nobody like you and to the infinite of time to come, there will be no one like you. Existence should have loved you so much that it broke the mould after making you, so that another of your kind will never get repeated. You are original. You are rare. You are unique. You are a wonder.

You are a masterpiece... your Master's piece.

Celebrate your Uniqueness!!!!

Meant to Be...

I was built to be the best.....number one in nothing less....leave me to my destiny.....i have waited patiently....i have vision n i believe...i know i can count on me...so stand up...for the champion!!!!!

Just a thought!

Funny! How every language contains vocabulary, describing only the meaning of them, and not the weight or the depth of them while using it!

Is it all about Winning????

Well…we recently concluded with the table tennis league at our college, and fortunately I happened to be associated with it quite closely….As of now I just had the knowledge of a layman about the game…but this tournament gave me quite an insight about it and made me acquainted with the intricacies involved.

 My intention is not to discuss my knowledge about the same!!! There were 6 teams in total, each with their set of players. All the teams were at par with each other. Ironically as per the law of the land…only 1 could win. But my concern is not as to who won….Once I saw the matches and the players facing each other I could see a spark in each one of them…everybody under tremendous pressure with an expectation from the owner, the team and of course the supporters; gave his best shot…the matches were all so close…Some of the real good players had an early exit.

This tournament had made me think for a while…IS IT ALL ABOUT WINNING??? Or its but being your best and giving in your 100%.This league taught me an important lesson…Its not only about winning at the end of the day…it’s about putting in your best foot forward with a positive attitude and giving your best shot…

This I believe helps us to achieve a sense of satisfaction which is much more eternal than anything else….Even winning…so as its always said…Do your best and leave the rest!!!!!

21....

Dis year on 19th of dis month, its been 21 years me existing in this world.I believe its one of the crucial phase of mah life. Stepping from adolescence to being an adult….a matured individual who is ready to carve a niche for herself. Its gonna be lot more exciting, thrilling and above all challenging for me hereafter. I am on the verge of competing my MBA and ready to put my first step on the corporate ladder. With lots of dreams and spark in my eyes (just like any other gal at my age wud have) I even tend to have jitters werein the heartbeat can be clearly heard when thinking about that big day. The big day being talked here undisputably is cracking successfully my dream company. Tremendous pressure, expectations in the eyes of near and dear ones, are all part of the package. All these 21 years I have been groomed and grilled in a way which has helped me grow as an individual. Everyday has been a learning experience making me better each time. Losing out on small things, depression of not being able to deliver as thought of, coming across and facing so many situations unimagined…..all these have embibed the seeds of practicality, fine judgement and positive attitude in me. Its not that I didn’t had people by my side when things went wrong,as they always will. Its just that I fought my battle on my own. I know its just the beginning and I have a long way to go. But I wont refrain from the fact that all these 21 years has been long enough to make me wise to understand that Life Goes On and so should you! These 21 years of my life has shaped me as an individual who is now ready to prove herself, not as a daughter,a sis or a friend;but one thing she has always yearned to….as an INDIVIDUAL herself!!!!!

I would like to sign off by quoting a couple of lines by Robert Frost

“The woods are lovely, dark and deep, But I have promises to keep, And miles to go before I sleep, And miles to go before I sleep.”- Stopping by woods on a Snowy Evening

Thats Me....

It may seem as if I am carefree and strong
Going through life as if nothing is wrong.
But no one has ever seen the real me
They only know what I let them believe.
Most often my smiles are real and sincere
Other times they help to hide my secret fears.
I carefully created a clever mask of illusion
I wear it now to hide my pain and confusion.
So never is a tear seen falling from my eye
I have learned to hold it all silently inside.
Quite often I want to just let go and weep
But the pain is very intense and too deep.
I yearn to belong, to be one of the crowd
To be able to speak of my dreams out loud.
Wanting so very much to be accepted
Yet fearing the possibility of being rejected.
I need special someone to discern the real me
And not hold in contempt what they will see.
The weaknesses and flaws I try so hard to hide
Are all part of the real me I keep hidden inside....

Just a Novice

Hello everyone...All I would like to say is am just new to blogging.I know its quite amusing that this should have been my first post.But its better late than never.Well the first post "Don't Quit" actually would keep my spirits high to articulate myself the best I can. Here I embark upon my journey in the world of blogging.
So greetings to all from a novice in your world...

Don't Quit

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Success is failure turned inside out,
The Silver tint in the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems afar.
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit,
It's when things go wrong that you mustn't quit.